youkaidemi

I cry for my brother never before have I cried and I cry for Penelo......She is gone and so is he I've failed them both. While I hesitant to save my own flesh and blood she leaped into the flames to save him those monsters where did they come from they clawed and bit her yet she fought with no hesitance...So beautiful, so brave, and powerful. There is nothing I could do as I was dragged from her battle when the ship fled I watched the ship my brother and she were stranded on burst into flames. Leave! Get a good distance from this ship! I'll be fine don't worry about me! Basch I swear to protect Noah I promise! Those words were her last to me I can't believe I did not help her. How? Why? Could I have changed their fate? Maybe if I had stayed they would have survived maybe....... Everyone felt sadness Larsa and Vaan were racking with sobs crying due to losing someone who was like the mother of the group and who they loved greatly. Fran eyes held sadness as her ears laid down in respect. Ashe simply allowed her tears to run like steady silent streams not making a noise. Balthier was......so angry he wish to look at no one and locked himself in his room after putting the Strahl on auto pilot I couldn't blame him really when looking at me I could see anger towards me....It was my fault all my fault as a few tears flow let them burn to the ground below...for there is nothing left but ash, soot, and tears. I can longer cry with sadness in my eyes all I can do is continue forward with them watching me from above I'll keep there memory alive for as long as I can the memory of a judge whose spirit was saved by a dancer I believe that would be a fitting tale to tell of those willing to listen one day I shall see you both again one day...........to my dearest brother and the woman I love apologies won't make up for what you two have felt. Let the spirits show you both fortune and mercy as I hope and pray for you both.






That is either a one shot! Or possibly a fanfic? Meh who knows...

                                                                  I felt so weird almost empty........Was it because of those memories? I thought I hoped I was over that I did not feel sad, angry, or scared just..................empty. Before I could think anymore on this I heard a whistle. I looked around from out of my reverie to see Balthier with a cocky smirk on his face. He climbed up to join me in the top of the tree. My my Penelo are not happy to see me? he said acting with a hurt expression. I said I needed so alone time Balthier I was shocked by how cold my voice sounded I felt even Balthier looking at me with concern you know Penny I don't recall saying anything hurtful or offending however I'm sorry if I made you angry. Tch....It was a apology an uneccessary one since he did nothing wrong I believed I needed to make that clear. Balthier I spoke as kindly as I could you've done nothing wrong I simply needed to think over some things that happened in the past is all. Like? obviously curious now. I felt funny........Balthier let it go...I felt my voice turn a bit more harsh then it what I prefered. I suppose these are wounds still a bit open? he asked with a still curious tone as if he ignored my cold tone. I let out a sigh. I was in no mood for questions. Maybe another time Balthier maybe.....After saying that I left without another word simply walking back to camp with a blank expression I felt tired maybe a good nap would clear my head. Once I was back in camp I was givin questioning stares and worried glances from Ashe and Basch I saw them gave reassuring smiles then headed to the nearest tent to lose myself in slumber.

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                                                             I wasn't sure if I was relieved or still worried Penelo seemed so......cold. I frowned maybe having Balthier retrieve her was not the best idea. once I saw Balthier I dragged him back into the forest I wanted answers. I let him go swiftly to earn a grunt and a scowl of anger. What did you do? I asked I was angry no enraged if he had done anything to hurt her in any way I would not be able to ensure his safety or health. Captain if Penny is upset am I always the one to blame? He said showing obvious frustration. Answer the question! I was losing patience with this man. I assure you I've done nothing to harm her or upset her she simply isn't herself.......his voice was trailing off slightly. Then there it was that damn smirk of his always managed to uprise faint irritation from me easily. You know Captain I have some advice. Best make your feelings known before someone else claims the prize he said with so much cockiness that I could lunge at him at this very moment however I manage to restrain in doing so. I'm afraid I no idea on this prize you speak of I said keeping my voice void of emotions like anger and embarrassment was becoming more difficult by the second. This pirate was provoking me......Thats when thank the gods that Fran came upon interrupting a surfacing conflict. Will not be long until we are to eat best you go to camp now or the food will demolished in little time she said keeping her cool nature obviously aware that there was tension in the air. We head to camp now. It was more of demand then a question I followed with little argument. In my ear the pirate whispered best make your move quick captain or I'll make mine. Then he arrogantly strolled into camp starting a conversation with Vaan. Basch I heard Lady Ashe call my name yes mylady? I saw you drag Balthier into the forest......hesitating about her next words it seemed. Is everything alright with Penelo? I truly don't know......I felt guilt and worry not being able to help Penelo. Maybe we should leave her be majesty I believe time to think would be best for her at the moment. Ashe nodded at the suggestion very well if she needs anyone to talk to were both here until that time comes you are right she simply needs time trying to give a encouragging smile I smiled back trying to look at the situation positively but it was nothing troubling at the moment.

                                                                                                                                           Can we stop!? I heard Vaan whine I couldn't help but roll my eyes I sighed listen Vaan the sooner we get there the sooner you can rest alright? I said But Penny..............Listen I said in a stern voice calling me by my nickname isn't going to butter me up! He was literally faking being passed out from exhaustion we were in Salika woods we weren't very far from Phon coast however it looked like my childhood friend wasn't going to move. You know what Vaan I'm gonna- But before I could finish I heard a chuckle deep like It was definitely Basch's Penelo I don't think a small break would hurt he said with genuine smile he really was a sweet man. Well he was the last person I would argue against. Well your getting off lucky this time Vaan now get up before you get your clothes all ruined I said with a stern scowl. No surprise after hearing we would take a break Vaan had already jumped up to collect firewood with a stupid grin plastering his face. My penny are you the only one able to keep that boy in line? I heard Balthier ask me. I tend to wonder sometimes I said when I thought about how I had practically raised Vaan after my parents and brothers were killed...........God I hate even thinking about that horrible nightmare of an experience I thought. You alright my dear? He asked when I looked up there was genuine concern in his eyes I gave him a sweet nod. Yeah I'm fine just need a little alone time is all I said and disappeared into the forest......

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                               I wonder if Penelo would mind if I cooked tonight? she more than deserves a break I thought happily every time I thought about the sweet, beautiful, and motherly young woman I felt renewed admiration and affection for her however these feelings were inaproppriate and I would never act on them. When I looked up after gathering some firewood there was no Penelo in sight. I saw Fran setting up the tents with Vaan's help and Ashe scolding Balthier. Curious I went up to them and asked her majesty what the problem was. I heard lady Ashe sigh. When I looked up from helping with the tents I saw Penelo go into the forest on her own I'm trying to find out what Balthier did to upset her she said while glaring at Balthier. I gave him a questioning look. In my defense captain I said nothing to upset her she simply said she needed some alone time. I became worried about dear Penelo if anything were to happen to her I would never forgive myself. I heard her majesty rant on about what could happen to Penelo I nor Balthier was very interested in the conversation sighing from boredom obviously his mind was wondering on something else what though? Penelo possibly? I felt a pang of jealousy I wonder why I felt that? Well I suppose I'll never know what he is thinking of in that arrogant mind of his.......

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                                Part of me was worried about dear Penny last thing I wanted was to upset her...........I then smirked if its any consolation I would be more than happy to retrieve her before dinner. I noticed a look on the captain's eyes jealousy perhaps? I would have to look further into that. I was known for torturing people through their emotions. The captain would be very fun to toy with I thought. Well would that put your minds at ease? I asked Ashe simply nodded while the captain grunted and returned to help gather firewood and set up the tents yes..........this would definitely be interesting I thought. Now to find my dearest Penny I said with enthusiasm visible in my voice as I marched into the woods I can only imagine how uncharacteristic that was I thought with a shrug.